So many things I should have done differently

If I could step back I

Would never pull away from that kiss.

I would have held you longer.

I see now that I have failed in

My life, Failed for not having you

Sooner... Failed for not having you.

Your eyes speak to me now,

And I see in them that it could

Have been more than what we never had...

It will be more than we don't have now.

It will be for real...

It will be forever...

It will be for us...

I see your body now, and I

Feel my soul cry...

Such beauty.

Beauty that I never held,

Beauty I never pleased...

Not yet.

I hear your words, sweet words

In my ears and I turn to

Kiss your body, only, you're not there...

You have broken my

Mind, without knowing, without trying.

You have made me the man which

I am tonight...

Broken and falling in love.

I find myself thinking of her, and it saddens me.

I found love in her, and I threw it away.

She touched my face as a friend, and kissed my

Lips as a lover...

And I threw it away.

She was my friend for ever, and after

A short while, she was my love...

And I threw it all away.

I lost my friend, my love, my lover,

And her happiness...

I threw it all away and I broke her heart.

I threw it all away and lost my friend.

I threw it all away and ruined my life.

I threw it all away and I know she will be happy.

Such a caring friend, a caring love, a beautiful person,

And I threw it all away...

And now

I hear a song, and I need

You. I need your heart in my

Hands.

My hands do not know your body,

My lips know not you lips,

My ears have not heard you voice,

My eyes have not seen your smile.

But my soul knows your love,

And my heart knows our peace...

And that is enough... For now.

My dreams know your kiss, my

Thoughts wander to you always...

We have not touched, forever.

We have not loved, forever.

But someday...

Forever...

Forever in love, forever in us.

-About ready to give up-

-The young Japanese girl in the brown sweater.

What challenges have you faced, beautiful,

But shy. What problems have your small

Nimble hands sorted through?-

All things being equal, I have broken.

I have broken in my soul, and I hurt.

I am hurting, and you don't care.

You don't care, and I am alone.

I am alone, and you don't care...

Just a note...

To those not so faithful followers, just a note.

I have the desire to get off my mind, this fact.

All the entries on here that have any form of the word

Obvious, are about one person in particular...

She will never read them here. But I had to unload

That fact from my mind....